Things don't work out ... God works out things.
Remind me that You only expect from me what you have placed or will place within me. I know you'll give me today what I will need tomorrow. I want to be able to pray through the tough times. I need to be reminded that he's going to equip me in advance for what I'll need. Faith. I need more faith. No wait. I have faith. I just need to learn how to apply it when I need to. Its not that I need to get frustrated, trying to conjure up enough faith, I just need to CLAIM the faith that he's got for me. My father has all the faith in me, so why not just claim that? Release in me the aspect of Your character that I most need for the circumstances I am in right now. You're giving me faith. You're holding it out. So I'll claim it. I'm really trying but its hard right now. My heart feels like its being crushed. My brain hurts. Heck everything hurts. That's what depression does to you. Makes you hurt. I have nothing to be depressed about, nothing has happened lately. |Everything is good actually. But tell the chemicals in my brain that. It hits me at the strangest times. Like - why now? Why, all of a sudden, when I'm happy and finally on my feet and working, why does it have to tear me apart now? I don't feel normal. I'm not me. Its an emotional prison that has got me held captive. It is just as easy to succeed as it is to fail.
It is just as easy to be kind as it is to be cruel. It is just as easy to listen as it is to talk. It is just as easy to save your money as it is to waste it. It is just as easy to call a friend as it is to watch television. It is just as easy to take a walk as it is to take a nap. It is just as easy to help someone as it is to hurt them. It is just as easy to have a positive outlook as it is to be negative. It is just as easy to get up at 5:30 as it is to get up at 8:00. Life is determined by a series of choices, each one building on the one before. The significance of each individual choice may not seem that great. When added together, however, it is all the choices you make that combine to put you where you are. Most people agonize over the big choices and don’t even think about the little ones, though the little choices are what make the big ones possible. Making the little choice every day to get up early and get right to work, enables you to eventually make the big choices such as where to live and what kind of work to do. Little choices such as what to eat and how much exercise to get will eventually determine how long and how well you live. Every moment of every day is an opportunity. What you do with that opportunity is determined by the little choices you make along the way. “Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused” — Alan CohenYou may don’t know, you are the world.
If you like spring, spring will be like you, If you like flowers, flowers will like you also. If you love others, they also give you love back. If you have suspicions, the suspicion will all around you. So, stop out the behavior you don’t want to see, Only do the things you want to grateful the world. You are the world. So, you should let yourself be better, then the world will be better… I really wish my days didn’t revolve around the medications I take. 4x a day I’m taking pills. And if I don’t, or miss a dose, I’m either in extreme physical pain or very emotional. Things and activities are scheduled around medication doses. I can be more active once I’ve had my morphine, because the pain eases a bit. I can handle going out in public but only after taking 3mg of Ativan.
I’m a prescription junkie and i hate it. |